I am bored. Overwhelmed, bored and stuck Not because I don't have a list of things to do, but bored because I don't want to do any of them. I don't want to clean my house, I don't want to weed the garden or make phone calls and I, definitely, do not want to cook dinner. Is this my future?
Many of us who have recently retired or were full-time moms and are no longer involved in the constant responsibilities of children, find ourselves with extra time on our hands. Personally, I find myself not wanting to be the family maid, cook and secretary any more. However, retiring from life is not possible and those things must still be done. So, what do I do?
I don't have any quick answers, but today I was thinking about how I have been collecting rocks on the dirt road coming up to my house to put around the tree beds in my yard. Every time I come up the road, I load 10-12 rocks in my car and distribute them to area where I left off last time. Slowly, very slowly, I complete a bed. I am amazed by how much I have done.
Then it hit me. If I had looked at the whole yard and thought about how many rocks I would have to gather. I might have been overwhelmed, gotten stuck and not even started the job.
My idea is to treat my life like my yard, picking up one rock at a time, instead of looking at the whole thing and finding myself overwhemed. I think that is what I need, slow simple steps.
I still don't want to clean the house, weed the yard or cook dinner. But, maybe, if I focus on one simple thing, like cleaning one room or weeding one small area, I can motivate myself. Maybe I can stop looking ahead at all the things I don't want to do and focus on one rock at a time. This feeling of being overwhelmed, bored and stuck is not good. I'll let you know how it goes....-Jan